tired of wasting so much breath
tired of spending time on something im unsure of
tired so tired
not sleeping
nightmares every night
every few hours
ruining our nights
what is my life
why does it have to be so confusing
spacious
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
i keep trying to break up
i can hear him outside sobbing to his mom on the phone
all day i have tried
deep scars fresh from a lashing
i have nothing left to lose
my family hates me
my job ends next week
all of my debt is pounding on my door and im not doing anything about it
i am not attractive
i make no one happy
this was only a matter of time
i wonder how long we'll have to share this space before we can get out
theres no point in staying here anymore
ill probably just disappear instead
all day i have tried
deep scars fresh from a lashing
i have nothing left to lose
my family hates me
my job ends next week
all of my debt is pounding on my door and im not doing anything about it
i am not attractive
i make no one happy
this was only a matter of time
i wonder how long we'll have to share this space before we can get out
theres no point in staying here anymore
ill probably just disappear instead
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Sunday, July 10, 2011
i really just want to be closer
i want to be better friends
i wish we had had more time before we went so far so fast
i cant go back
we cant take steps back
i dont know how to ease into happiness now that we're so far fucked
i wish we had had more time before we went so far so fast
i cant go back
we cant take steps back
i dont know how to ease into happiness now that we're so far fucked
all i do is- SHUT THE FUCK UP
im tired of talking shit here like it helps me out.
things are going so great that i invent ways to be angry and reasons to go too far.
it's an unhealthy cycle of me not saying what bothers me out loud but putting it in a secret far away place that means nothing.
I'M AFRAID THAT I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR BRADLEY.
I'M AFRAID THAT SOON ENOUGH HE WILL REALIZE THIS TOO.
I'M AFRAID THAT MY INSECURITIES PREVENT ME FROM SHARING A PURE LOVE WITH BRADLEY.
I KNOW THAT I AM IN MY OWN WAY.
things are going so great that i invent ways to be angry and reasons to go too far.
it's an unhealthy cycle of me not saying what bothers me out loud but putting it in a secret far away place that means nothing.
I'M AFRAID THAT I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR BRADLEY.
I'M AFRAID THAT SOON ENOUGH HE WILL REALIZE THIS TOO.
I'M AFRAID THAT MY INSECURITIES PREVENT ME FROM SHARING A PURE LOVE WITH BRADLEY.
I KNOW THAT I AM IN MY OWN WAY.
Monday, June 6, 2011
its only right that i be left again and again of my own will
he started doing all the things ive asked him to
he cleaned up all his stuff
he's mailing his records
his life is already ten times better without me
who am i to stop the right thing from happening
its only right that i be left again and again of my own will
he cleaned up all his stuff
he's mailing his records
his life is already ten times better without me
who am i to stop the right thing from happening
its only right that i be left again and again of my own will
do i really want to break up?
i need a schedule
and i need him to have a schedule
all this freedom is making us angry
i made a mistake
i told him to leave
what will i do without him?
he's washing the dishes
not talking to me
feels like he's just making sure he ties up all loose ends
im afraid he'll tell somebody
im afraid he'll enjoy being without me
i have to go stop him
i dont want to be alone, i just need some alone time
and i need him to have a schedule
all this freedom is making us angry
i made a mistake
i told him to leave
what will i do without him?
he's washing the dishes
not talking to me
feels like he's just making sure he ties up all loose ends
im afraid he'll tell somebody
im afraid he'll enjoy being without me
i have to go stop him
i dont want to be alone, i just need some alone time
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