dumb

homie asked me to lunch and i said no. (i had to work)
i think i'm going to invite him to the halloween. he better come.

recap

catching up:

on wednesday erica flew home. that night i went out with this okc dude jasper. he was not as cute as his pictures and he had a speech impediment. we bought some tallboys at safeway and drank them in duboce park for almost an hour and then i went home. i wont be seeing him again.

on thursday i texted john like a retard,
"sup john u workin tonight?"
"sup playa.. yeah i am"

on friday i awoke to a text from amit asking about putting his shelves up. i got ready as quickly ass i could and started walking down to his place but on the way there i got a text that he had to go to the office so i should just see him on monday.
i walked back home and then had the whole morning to chill before going to pick up my paycheck. i smoked a lil bit with matt and cody and then emailed peeps about apartments and rooms for rent. i found this apt in the mission with three gals in their 20s, fully furnished room and no deposit for dec 1st. we have been emailing each other back and forth and i am going to check out the place on tuesday night.
around 2:45 i went to the market to get cash back for the muni and then rode to papyrus where i picked up my first paycheck and found out that i've been placed at the Montgomery store. I guess this store is smaller and opens/closes earlier. whatever. the manager's name is svetlana.
from there i proceeded to get ripped off by taco bell paying $3:82 for a cheesy gordita crunch (best one i've ever had tho, i swear). and then i got on bart and headed to oakland. sophie and i met up and went to her place and ate soup and pet bobby and chilled hard until katie got off work and came to meet us.
then we set out on the road to big sur.
so much giggle town, girl talk and in n out.
we got to esalen around 10:30pm and had some beers with katie's mom (and dad, who decided to come help his ex-wife move and make everyone's lives hella awkward for the weekend) and then we went to bed. in the morning we went to esalen for breakfast and sat outside overlooking the ocean and bronzing in the sun. we moved katie's mom's house and had more delicious num nums, laid in the grass, read books, played cards, drank beers, then we headed back to property for dinner with a bottle of wine. we ate dinner at the bar with our bottle and then got in the natural hot spring tubs on the cliff of the ocean. (right?!) i got all emo and nauseous and then i threw up. i drove us all home in sophies car and we passed out.
on sunday we got up and ate breakfast and then sophie did some yoga and i took a nap in the sun and then sophie and i went to brunch. after brunch we walked down thru the garden to the coast and climbed rocks and got our feet in the water. some birds ate the togo food we wrapped up for katie.
at 2pm we left big sur and a few hrs later we were eating in n out again and going to the pumpkin patch. we got hella pumps and cracked so many jokes and laughed at all the babies in their costumes having to pose for photographs.
at this time i texted john,
"we carving pumpkins later tonight at my place. u in?"
nothing.
we got back to the city a little before 8 and everyone helped us carry in our pumpkins. we made hard apple cider and had a carve fest.
we are having a halloween party on saturday and the theme is the nightmare before christmas, so all of our pumpkins we xmas themed. i made a snowman on fire. and a little heart pumpkin. lots of folks came over and it was just so super fun.
at 8:54pm i get a text from john,
"Lucille I am drizzzzzzzzzzzunked.. Hard to text.. Hard to focus.. Have fune.."
what an asshole.

today i am going to work for amit for a few hours and then head over to montgomery for the first time and see how it goes. tonight katie's dad is coming to the city and they are having dinner together. i might just kick it real low key-z.

i love cali.

the art of making friends

man, i've been called an "outcast" here in sf one too many times these past three weeks.
i'm usually such a friend magnet. but at the same time, if we don't click, i'm not going to spend a ton of time on you.
i'm trying more and more to hang out with anyone who gives me the opportunity.
last night katie had tickets to the opera and matt, al and cody all had rugby practice so i was boohooing around the house wishing i had friends. annie came over (to freak on matt, they are SO dating now) and told me she was going to a bbq at her place and invited me.
now, i love booze and bbqs and wanted some new friends, so i totally said yes.
we headed over to the market and then to her place, which is pretty rad. her roommate alice was there and smoked us some bowls and we drank a couple of beers and girl talked. after like an hour or so we were all wondering where everyone was/bbq. eric came over, ravished, and so he, annie and i walked to safeway for coals and instant mashed potatoes. we came back, lit up the grill, and chilled pretty hard.
another boy, james, came over and a gal who's name escapes me now, stopped by as well. i ate salad and instant mash and probably spoke like 15 words the whole time.
i was suuuuuuuuuper stoned (this gal alice like sells hella drugs and does hella drugs and works a 8-5 financial job and rages and idk how she does it). and didnt really click with neone neway.
i totally bailed at the end of the night when ihad to come let katie in the gate. i told everyone i would meet them at pilsner, but i totez bounced.
im sure they all think im a weirdo.
fuck everyone.
the point of this story is that i need to make some friends.
amit?
idk. im heading to big sur with katie and sophie tonight. all good.
shitty post. sry.

coffee nap

erca's here.

thug lyfe.

getting up early blows.

working rulez.

on sunday night i met erica at bart and we came home and smoked with cody n matt n al n ate banana bread and went to sleep. on monday after work erica met me on valencia in the middle of a monsoon (after taking yoga) and we walked home and got hypothermia. later, we went to a bar down the street called black bird.  they had $3 wells and and photobooth! eric n i took some amazing pics and had a drank and played hangman. then we went to the corner store and bought a bottle of whiskey. al had a bunch of people over for a cocktail party and we.got.drunk.

this morning i woke up at seven am and went to work for papyrus but sadly, not amit today. i was super happy of course to have the afternoon off and chill with eric. we smoked with matt n cody n then walked to get pizza and place an order for a rug for katie and buy some bunny teeth and get a hot cookie and a coffee.  we ran into cody n matt n annie on the way home and said hey then came home then so did they. smoked some cigs, some bowls, now its coffee nap.

tonight we goin to elixir for trivia and im going to face the tender who did not call/text me to hang. im a look good.

sunny california

god, it's so beautiful here.

palm trees.

erica is coming tomorrow!

my jobs are great.

we had a party last night. well, a fiesta. stuart and mich had bdays and erybody had tacos.
we stuffed 7 people in a cab out to the marina and went to a bar called eastside west. dannnnnnnnnnnnnncing. alex joseph is so cute. katie loves him.
sophie and wes came and met us and drove me n katie back home where we taco'd it up and al and matt and cody and alex took a cab. we smoked a joint, went to bed.

this dream.

im never waking up.

boy crazy

friday just keeps getting better and better as we all start putting more pieces together.

i guess matt barfed a couple times on the street. he also broke a glass at 500 after the sox lost and then another glass at elixir bumping into some dudes arm. also, he lit my hair on fire lighting my cig.

hahaha.

sunday.

katie and i went to the produce market across from safeway and got some num nums. then we came back home and katie cut my hair out on the stoop. matt n i smoked cigs while she cut and then cody made fun of me for getting my hair did for my big date on monday.
then i walked to the bart and rode to walnut creek where emily met me. we went to her place and picked up her mom and met her dog and drove her mom to grandma's house. then we drove to target and i bought some all black work clothes. i got a pair of black flats and a pair of black snakeskinish wedges and a super hawt black dress and a cool black top and some shampooing. then we went to the grocery and bought groceries for her and her mom slash our delicious meal. after we dropped off the groceries it was time to pick up emilys mom and so we did and then came home and began roasting a chicken. yes, roasting a chicken.
it was awesome. it took like 2 hours and we didnt eat until 11pm BUT in the mean time we did smoke bowls and drink wine and i started emily's car for her (just luck) and we made green beans and banana bread. omg.
so then i went on okc forEVER and talked to zoe about her casual encounter (love it). then we went to bed.

monday.

woke up. went for a walk. ate toast. emily packed me a lunch and drove me to bart.
read my book on bart and broke my heart more.
ugh, its so good. go read it.
at 12:30 i get a text from john,

"hey lucille, u awake"
"silly john, yes. im on my way to work for a couple of hours"
"want to catch dinner when ur off? assuming ur off around 5ish..."
"totally. ill prob b done around 4"

went to work. drooled over amit.
then. at 4:19pm i receive a text from john,

"have u been to la mediteranee?"
"nope"
"do u like Mediterranean food?"
"yep"
"great. when can u be there?"
"an hr?"

etc.

so, im like at the post office while we're texting and then i have to stop by the office and drop shit off (bc the post office is closed on columbus day, duh) and then get home and change into something adorable and smell good by 5:30.
turns out he has to work at 6:30 so we only have a little time together neway.
so im hauling buns to get home and by the time i get home i am drenched in sweat and have to completely change outfits.
so we say we'll meet at 5:15 and at 5:20 i walk in and there he is, soooooooooooo cute, sitting at the front of the restaurant waiting for me.
dream boat.
we chit chat the whole time, never a lull. he's sooooooo cute. omg a bear.
food was amazing. he bought it. i thanked him.
he had to go to work. we had a little hug outside and then parted ways.

i felt like i should have said something more about what a great time i had or like let him know that i want to hang out again. so after i got home and ran it by katie i decided to text him,

"so, when can i see u again?"

now, i know that he had just gone to work and shouldnt be texting and is probably busy but it didnt stop me from feeling anxious about getting a reply. and so, an hour and a half later, after not hearing back, i know i know so faux pas, i texted again!

"maybe i can buy you some drinks next night youre not working. hit me up"

a half hour later i get,

"sounds like a plan stan"

omg. i real hope i can get him drunk and mack on him.

so im at home and i take a shower and i get out and i hear out the window matt downstairs on the phone obvi trying to get al to let him in. i stick my head out the window and from his perspective im naked. i let him in and he makes a joke about seduction. (if only he knew how true it were.)
then i got online and told micah olson he was a babe and he said he'd be in cali next month and we can hook up. i gave him my number.
so katie comes home and matt, al, stuart, katie and i watch some glee and donnie from okc is texting me about hanging out but decides not to and then matt n al n i go out.
we meet cody on the street otw to the pilzner (the spot they all regularly frequent. like, their elixir). matt buys me a drink and we go out and meet some friends of theirs and smoke cigs and a joint and then cody buys me a drink and then we all go to qbar for dollar wells.
i get myself one and go out onto the smoking patio dooda. for like an hour i sat speaking to no one and just drinking and watching and it was so crowded and matt is soooo in love with annie who is soooo in love with chris who is sooo into himself and only himself. whatev. so we head back inside at last call and chris and i get another drink and chris buys me a shot and we take them.
i can tell that chris is flirting with me but srsly only bc im the only girl there who is a. straight b. single c. not his ex (annie). so annie who is still in love with chris is hating on me and matt who is in love with annie is just chasing chasing and all the while im thinking matt should just be into me.
so al and cody and i walk home and al makes scrambled eggs and i make a burrito and cody makes pasta. and we drunkenly feast.
then i got in bed and, bc im a retard / know that hes up bc he told me he would b and know he has to do a huge exam the next day, i text john AGAIN.

"good luck tomorrow"

"thanks. i hope the four hours i sleep i get are good ones!"

"they'll b awesome"

then i went on okc and messaged my ibf mikey that i was hella into him and want him to come to california.
then i passed out.

tuesday.

slept until the last poss minute. its raaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiining!
i had a dream that my foot hurt and so i pulled off my boot and pulled of my long sock and looked under my big left toenail for the ow-y and a spider came out!
omg i shot up in bed.

otw to work today i tripped on the curb.
otw to do the mailing my umbrella flipped up three times.
but amit is so beautiful that my day really turned around.
today he said to me,

"ur the best!"

then i came home and put on cozies and ate a sandwich and sophie came over and had a phone interview that went awesome and she got a second interview!
and then she make dried fruit and almond platters and now im eating that and shes talking to her mom on the phone and i think im going to go smoke a cig.

oh wowee. boyz boyz boyz. love them all, all the time.

dreams do come true

well, shit. if i get struck by lightning, know i earned it.
lady luck is on my side.
i got hired at papyrus.
i'm in love with amit.
hot tender texted me. and we're hanging out on monday. what?

i got sooooooooooooo drunk last night.

me and al and matt went down to elixir about seven (after having a cocktail at home).
they weren't playing the sox games so we had to go somewhere else. (matt.)
we went down the street to 500 and bought a round and then katie came to meet us. i think i had four drinks there.
then we went to elixir after the game and as i approached the bar, so did he.

"hey lucille, what are you having?"

(swoon, sigh, omg)

"whiskey diet."

i bought everyone's drinks.
i wrote my number on a napkin and hung onto it for a while.
i dont remember much of this part of the night.
katie was talking to a hella hot indian dude.
i leaned across the bar.

"hey."

"sup?"

"i'm trying to hang out with you."

"cool. sunday?"

"no."

"monday?"

"ok."

"what do you want to do?"

"whatever. here's my number."

he takes the napkin and lights it on fire with the candle and blows it out. (omg hawwwwwwwt.)

"i'll call you on monday."

i have no idea what happened after that.
i imagine i was hella drunk and chatting with someone or no one, or trying to text, maybe squinting one eye... hahaha i kill myself.
i remember maybe saying like, "you better call me." and him saying, "i'll call you on monday."
then like katie and i were linked arms, maybe running? i lost a shoe. i found it. i woke up.

haha waking up was hilarious. katie like got up out of bed like chasing after whoever was leaving the house because she had dreamt that someone was here and being sneak and scandalous.

i guess we ate pupusas when we got home. katie told me this. and then al told me that matt puked on the street twice. hahaha omg. and we were like home by midnight. ridiculous.

i looked at my phone this morning and had a text from John from last night at 11:42 saying, "Hey lucy. this is john."
werid that he called me lucy bc he always calls me lucille. which i love.
i texted back at 11:52am "yo john. sry i was so wastey."

katie and i walked to a garage sale and otw there we stopped at this like mexi church weekend fiesta block party food from all over the world and i got a pupusa and a diet coke and felt amazing.
the garage sale ruled and we got a rug, a lamp, and a beer for $11.
carrying the rug home was amazing bc it was huge and i was drinking a beer out of a red cup. we walked by elixir and made eye contact with john who was in there sitting at the bar. ?
when we got home i had a text from him saying, "no worries. these things happen to the best of us."

then i went with al to her uncle's house.
we took the muni then bus 47 (on which al and i both became hungover) and then hiked a huge hill to her uncle's house. which is amazing. we went up on the roof and got beers and met hella amazing great people and watched the blue angels jet show. it was soooooooo coooooool.
at one point they made a heart in the sky and then an arrow going thru it.
omg.
then we ate hella bomb croissandwiches and baked doritos and stella artois and cigarettes and laughing.
then cody and matt picked us up and we came home and ian smoked me out and cody found his license and katie and al made dinner and now im going to eat it.