i'd rather be lonely than happy with somebody else

if one, just one friend would call when they say they will, i'll feel like i have any.

today i got so, and i mean like raging, so sad because i wanted to go get dinner and a drink and my one someone didn't want to. totally legit not to want to. totally lame that i have NO other friends.

but i hate everyone.

i only like people who don't live here and they never call me back.

bradley is my best friend.

i'd be lost without him.

even more lost than i am now.

super thankful

highlights of today

american idol auditions were today in sf at at&t park

i did not attend as planned.

instead,

i moved the twilight movie to the #1 position in my netflix queue

and i dropped out of community college.

time to get really really high.

skool

its familiar but i feel superior

aka im a bitch

i dont want to make friends but im annoyed that no one tried

ugh

i have to make friends

its what i do

i want a study group like Community

potentials:

18 yr old girl in my camera class that said, "oh, you," today.

18-22 y/o girl i hate in gospel choir that stared at me smiling all day monday, clearly trying to be friends because i was the only other white person.

~20 y/o niko from theatre who laughed when i said, "he's just working out," as the emotional expression the dude posing as 'shocked' was tableau-ed in.

~20 y/o niko's gf who goes everywhere he goes.

i just need some more oldies and it'll be good.

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