i have ruined everything

i need help. please.

i'm losing touch with myself?

missing

guh.

living together. all i want is to hang out all the time and be around him all the time. is this hurting our relationship though? he used to be excited to see me. we used to go out. i feel like im losing him.
i know im not.
he wouldnt go anywhere. i just mean, losing interest. i want to excite. im just so dead lately.
loneliness is eating me, debt, discomfort. sf is bogus. i need $$$$$$$$$$$$.

im going to make some music. please give me positive attention.