buster

is my fave

i really just want to be closer

i want to be better friends

i wish we had had more time before we went so far so fast

i cant go back

we cant take steps back

i dont know how to ease into happiness now that we're so far fucked

all i do is- SHUT THE FUCK UP

im tired of talking shit here like it helps me out.

things are going so great that i invent ways to be angry and reasons to go too far.

it's an unhealthy cycle of me not saying what bothers me out loud but putting it in a secret far away place that means nothing.


I'M AFRAID THAT I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR BRADLEY.

I'M AFRAID THAT SOON ENOUGH HE WILL REALIZE THIS TOO.

I'M AFRAID THAT MY INSECURITIES PREVENT ME FROM SHARING A PURE LOVE WITH BRADLEY.

I KNOW THAT I AM IN MY OWN WAY.